-phrases i repeat until-
spitting acid from my calloused mouth,
like a viper
fending off a threat
that turns out to be
its own reflection.
in the majority of the problems i face
lies a glimmer of myself,
the fingerprint of an artist found at the core of a piece.
repeating “go away” until my back is against a wall,
flame floods the hall
to prevent escape.
i’m trapped in this room with twelve people,
my mind has decided hate me.
so i’m standoffish,
i’m too drained of energy,
i become the villain
and i’m known for that day.
scratches into spinning vinyl
“you’re a bad person”
snipping the safety net beneath me
until it’s a pile of rope
tangled in the grass below.
i fall faster
with each syllable
until a final blow,
a final bone snap.
my jaw becomes unhinged
and i repeat the nuclear attacks,
vaporize every ounce of confidence
splitting through the tension in the air,
repeating phrases to destroy myself
until my tongue bleeds.
biting my cheek until a hole opens,
biting my nails until my fingers fall off.